Thursday, October 29, 2015

Prague a magical place




I have walked and jogged over this bridge so many times. And every time it doesn't matter in rain, foggy, on a cold day or like on Saturday beautifully sunny day it always hits me the beauty of Prague. I was cool and happy being back and not too nostalgic. But when I reached this view I couldn't stop a few tear drops from falling. How magical is this place!? To me it still feels like coming home.

Heading back to Prague


We moved from Prague exactly one year ago. I was very sad to leave in fact I don't think I have ever cried so much over a place. It was a hard time for us as we felt very lost in all the new and the changes. A year has past and after a pretty though period it feels like we are out on the other side and we are little less lost and much more positive all of us.

It was great to head back to Prague in this positive spirit. I will write more and show some pictures in my next post. Just wanted to show a family portrait I made of friends. Always nervous to give a family portrait away when its not been asked for. I hope they liked it and can find some similarities at least in the setting.

Thursday, October 15, 2015

Ooops, searching for internationals and lesson learned

It is hard to move as I have mentioned before. The fact that I know things will feel home and we will meet good people give it some time is hard to remember when your little girl looks at you with sad eyes and says " Mamma I have NO friends here!" I tried to sound positive and replied "but you have me!" and she just looked at me and said " But I want a friend like Malou here that I can play horse with!" Hmmm nothing to reply or discuss just let the mamma heart break and then take action. 



So I took action and wrote on like three different expat parents in Moscow Facebook pages to introduce us and to ask if anyone one else living in our area and fancy to meet up. I also wrote to International women club Moscow and a Swedish group who are organizations to connect internationals in this huge city. Yes maybe I felt a little embarrassed like billy no mate asking for friends but I thought what the hell who cares and in the end of the day it is 2015. Also when I moved to Prague I found this amazing group of international parents in Prague also on FB that were so helpful, welcoming and friendly. I met more or less all my friends in Prague in some way or an other through this FB page.

When I received no replies after two days nor any likes I became so disappointed, not like sad just like what is wrong with people kind of disappointed. Even more so when this international clubs replied very standard phrases and just asking to pay membership fees. I got so upset with this to me very unfriendly approach and in this disappointed state of mind i needed to share it with Loren who is currently away in Ducat and 8 hours a head so I couldn't call him at that moment.. So I forwarded him the reply ( I thought) and wrote "I get sooo upset with all this fucking fake international networks!! Just see this very non human standard email saying nothing more then pay membership!! I mean 3000 Rubles is no problem but really get to get some nice help or information first is that too much to ask for. Same with the Swedish network! No one commented anything more then the lady said hope you can become member of the network...On the other facebook pages for expat parents NO reply !! I am chocked!" 

 
I took the kids for a walk and a play and calmed down and accepted the facts that this is how it is and yes maybe I overreacted a bit as I guess everyone is busy with themselves or have filled up their friend quota. Funny enough this same day I found a very nice mother in the playground who have kids the same age and invited us for coffee and play and offered to help with what ever I need help with. She only lives a few houses away and is very interesting fun lady and just what I was looking for.

And now when I looked at my email I realized that I never sent this very upset mail to Loren but as a reply to the lady from the international club!! Hahhaa ( i am blushing a bit just reading my upset mail) so I guess I will really stay away from these group defiantly and next time I am writing upset emails I will make sure I send them to the right person! 



Svenska översättningen på denna ganska pinsamma incident som jag just ganska detaljerat och utlämnande har berättat lyder som följer. "Mamma jag har INGA kompisar" sa Mila en dag vid köksbordet "men du har ju mig" sa jag "Men jag vill ha en riktig kompis som Malou som jag kan leka häst med!" Mammahjärtat brast och jag bestämde mig för att jag måste göra något NU även fast jag vet att det kommer att lösa sig bara ge det lite tid i allt det nya.

Jag skrev på 3 olika Facebook sidor för internationella i Moskva, lite introduktion om oss o att vi letar efter andra i vårat område att umgås med. Kontaktade även två klubbar som anordnar diverse aktiviteter och generalmöten för internationella kvinnor för att få lite information vad de organiserar för barnaktiviteter.

När jag efter två dagar inte hade fått några svar eller ens en tumme upp kände jag att jag blev sur. Inte sur och ledsen utan mer sur och förbannad, vad är det för fel på folk. Till saken hör den att i Prag finns det ett helt fantastiskt nätverk på Facebook för internationella föräldrar där alla är hjälpsamma och välkomnande. Det är genom den gruppen jag har träffat alla mina vänner i Prag på ett eller annat sätt. Inser nu att det är unikt för Prag detta forum och mötesplats.

Hursom helst när jag sedan fick väldigt som jag tyckte otrevligt standard svar från en internationell klubb som mest sa att betala medlemsskap först. Jag menar jag vill ju först ha lite information om det kan vara nåt för oss innan jag springer till nästa generalmöte och betalar medlemsavgift som iof inte är så mycket att bråka om men en då. Nu blev jag förbannad och igen inte ledsen jag ger upp förbannad utan mer förbannad förbannad på detta hyckleri från dessa sk välgörenhetsklubbar öppen för alla internationella att mötas. Så jag kände att jag ville ventilera med Loren men eftersom han är i Ducat och de ligger 8 timmar framåt så kunde jag ju inte ringa just då. Så jag skrev ett ganska upprört mail till honom (trodde jag) med mycket svordomar och ord rakt från hjärtat i detta något upprörda tillstånd utan filter eftersom jag ju skrev till min man.

Sedan klädde jag på barnen och tog med dom ut till parken. Lustigt nog var det denna dag som jag träffade en supertrevlig mamma i parken som har barn i samma ålder som Mila & Filip och som bjöd hem oss på kaffe och lek och erbjöd sig att hjälpa mig om jag skulle behöva någon hjälp. Hon bor bara några hus bort och det var ju precis det jag letade efter. Idag tog hon med mig på barnjympa, introducerad mig till andra mammor i vårt område och visade mig mer av vårt område och helt utan medlemsavgifter.

När jag nu på kvällen öppnade min mail ser jag att mitt upprörda mail inte alls skickades till Loren utan jag skickade det visst som svar till ordförande av klubben så jag kommer garanterat hålla mig långt borta från den gruppen och nästa gång jag skriver ett argt mail ska jag kolla addressen en extra gång..

Wednesday, October 14, 2015

Brotherly love

The way little Filip looks at his big sister is amazing. She just has to look at him and he laughs out load and want to be with her so much. Even if Mila is in a lets say delicate mood he smiles to her. They are very cute together and as he is growing they are really connecting in the sweetest way. When he wakes up in the morning he turns to her to pull her hair or touch her face and when she wakes up she first want to hold him. It is a blessing to see them together and I hope they will stay friends forever.



Tuesday, October 13, 2015

Loooooong Russian winter ?!

Yeah it is horrible the first snow fell last week in Moscow, 8th of October. I repeat 8th of October!!! That is like at least one month too early. I was just about to get depressed when I saw Mila's happy reaction. She is very much into Walt Disney´s Frozen and didn't even have time to eat breakfast before heading out to play in the snow. It was fun to play in the snow for about 30 minutes and thanks god the snow is gone now and please no need to come again before 1 December..

Förra veckan föll den första snön över Moskva och la ett vitt kallt täcke över oss ett par dagar. Åttonde oktober är för tidigt för snö, ja menar nog för att det är fint och så men inte i oktober! Kom igen i december då är jag redo för dig. Mila blev superglad iaf, hon är ett stort fan av Frost ( en Walt Disney film om en prinsessa som kan förvandla allt till is och snö....) Vi hann knappt äta frukost innan hon ville ut och leka i snön. Jag fick leta fram hennes vinterkläder från förra året och insåg igen hur galet mycket hon har vucit under sommaren. Så i lördags var vi iväg och införskaffade ny vintermundering så nästa gång snön och kylan kommer är vi iaf förberedda. 





Sunday, October 11, 2015

Someone up for coffee?

First week back in Moscow. I am unpacking boxes creating home slowly but surely. It is great so much space. I can focus here and there to organize and to find home for everything, no rush. Or that's what I am trying to tell myself. I am so eager to get things how I want it and to unpack every box. But I am trying not to stress it and I think I am doing a pretty good job this time. The area is very cute and it feels like a great decision to move here instead of living down town. But it does take time to settle in and feel comfortable for all of us. I have moved so many times that I know that it is no walking in the park this with moving, but I also know that with time we will feel home and find our way around. I thought I with all my experience moving to different countries would feel calm with the knowledge that I will feel home and find great people just give it some time, but I can't help getting a little stressed and want to reach this stage now now. I guess that's why I am sitting drawing coffee cups hoping that I soon will have someone to invite for a nice strong coffee. 

Vår första vecka tillbaka i Moskva. Jag har packat upp flyttlåda efter flyttlåda för att får ordning och skapa hem här. Men jag försöker att inte stressa utan njuta av att det är så mycket utrymme och att jag faktiskt inte måste packa upp varenda pinal utan känna in och ta några steg i taget. Det känns bra att vi valde att flytta hit lite utanför stan och i detta mysiga bostadsområde. 





Tuesday, October 6, 2015

Moving East

I came from Moscow to Vingåker, Sweden, in March
Spring came and my belly was growing
The builders came and finished great and necessary projects on our house
Baby Filip arrived in May like the brightest sunshine in our life
Summer and the light nights came
Or actually the summer never really came as it was raining and pretty cool all summer but great weather when having a small baby and a 2,5 year old who likes to ride
It was hard to adjust to our country life and it was even harder being a part with Loren working in Moscow and me and kids living in Sweden
We got used to and formed a very nice country life and spending a lot of time and bonding with grandparents
Seeing family members on regular basis
Blessed with not only reconnecting with old friends but also making new great friends
Although of course still very hard spending so much time being apart as a family
September came and offered great autumn weather and lots of chantarells and berries in the forrest
It feels so good that we have built such nice home base in Lundsätter
Our country home that we all came to feel very nice in not only me but also the kids

1 October me and Mila & Filip flew over to Moscow to create our second home and base there
We are excited to be together the whole family and to utilize our city base as much as we can
We are more positive this time around and hungry to make the most out of the privilege of having two homes on in the nature close to friends and family and one in a big city and everything that has to offer.


Our blue house

Our new very cute neighbourhood in Ivakino